Is It Difficult To Follow Him?

This was a question that struck me about a week ago. Thinking more and more, I began to realize that the answer for me to the question above was a yes. Many times in my life I have always decided to go for my happiness. The saying “kung san ka masaya, eh di dun ka.” was more likely my motto. Sometimes (or most of the time), what He wants me to do is simple yet I still drag myself to the wrong path and resist going to the right one thinking that I know it makes me happy and that this is where He wants me to be. But I learned that that shouldn't be the case. The "driver" of my life should be Him alone and not me trying to steal the wheel from Him. It’s difficult for me to understand and even more difficult to surrender everything to Him. (I thought I did!) But then He knows that I am still keeping something behind my back that is still hard for me to let go. Many times I also try to deny what He is trying to tell me and make excuses just for me to hold to it longer. I need to learn to let go.

Yes, it’s really hard to follow Him especially when things don’t go my way and when all I can think about are my heart’s desires. BUT completely surrendering to Him, obeying and trusting His will with no strings attached and desiring more of Him than His blessings means having His best in every aspect of my life.